Sorry

I'm so sorry

I don't know what's wrong with me

Can't you see

I'm not okay in the brain

I really like pain

and I don't know why, but it feels a lot like rain

And it never leaves a stain

Maybe I deserve to die

And that doesn't scare me, I'm not going to lie

But I just want to figure out who I am and why

I WANT TO TRY

But sometimes it feels like I don't know how to

I want to live

But I don't know where to start

so I keep on trying

Even though a lot of the time I still feel like crying

And I feel like I want someone to come prying

But I know that my walls will go up

I know that I'm not okay

And I can't stay

But God tells me I should

So I do

And I don't know how much longer I can go on as being one of the chosen few

But I'm going to keep trying to stay true.